Let’s Talk About Dating

I’m just going to come out and say it: I don’t like dating. I’m sick of it, it stresses me out, and I would love nothing more than to never go on another first date in my life.

That’s not to say that everything about dating is bad. (#freefood) In fact I went on an uncharacteristically fantastic first date on Friday. (I go on a lot of first dates.) It’s just the whole processssss that I hate.

So I’ve recently discovered the musical Waitress (LOVE LOVE LOVE), and one song in Act 1 pretty much perfectly presents my feelings about dating.

Amazing, right? Now let’s break it down:
*Dating is stressful because there’s so much unknown
*What if I’m totally authentically Amber and he hates it?
*What if I’m totally authentically Amber and he likes it??
*I’m scared of breaking open. It’s terrifying.

Sheesh, this turned out to be a way more vulnerable post than I was planning. The point is that I’m always talking about how dating is the worst, but the truth is there’s way more to it than that. It’s scary to show up and be seen, and risk rejection. It’s also scary to be on the other end, potentially hurting someone who is showing up and being seen. It’s all a painful process that I would dearly love to be done with.